Rage and the Politics of Power
The United States of America is sitting on the edge of the precipice of destruction, with a government that no longer protects, uplifts, and guides the morality, well-being, and development of its people, but has turned in on itself and become a cancerous and erosive force of unconscious rage, shame, and fear, destroying itself and the country from within.
We hear all the time, “I don’t understand.” This suggests there is insufficient awareness of these unconscious forces within each of us, ourselves, which can affect outcomes in our personal lives.
I also hear, “I feel helpless, there is nothing I can do.” This statement again reflects a lack of awareness of the self as an integral part of a sick body. If one cell can maintain integrity in a sick body, it can heal the body. This is our responsibility – to ourselves, to our community, and to our nation.
Self-Awareness – Self-Responsibility – Self-Love
And to quote Obama – “Yes, we can.” The backlash to his presidency as a Black man is “No, you can’t.” “Yes and No” is truly a spiritual war that rages within each of us. And we have to choose moment by moment what we say “Yes,” and what we say “No.”
Let’s come together to become aware and fulfill the vision of hope Obama gave us – individually and collectively.
Why Ordinary People Need to Understand Power
https://www.ted.com/talks/eric_liu_how_to_understand_power
Lesson One - Definitions
"Every attempt to control another is an act of violence" ~Auberon Herbert
Politics of Power: When I refer to the Politics of Power, I am talking about the use of power over other people; I am not referring to internal empowerment, but rather to internal disempowerment. From this disempowered place, we have all learned tactics of power over others to get them to meet unconscious needs and tend to our fragile feelings, which have their source and origin in a disabled and disempowered psyche, stemming from childhood trauma and dysfunction.
Politics of Control: To use the politics of power is to admit that you have a lack of inner power to meet your own needs, cannot esteem yourself, love yourself, or relate to yourself in some way that is nurturing, intimate, and aware. In fact, as you attempt to coerce, change, or cajole others into caring for your feelings and needs, you are at the same time using control tactics to repress knowledge of how you feel and what you need. This means you are disempowered to meet your own needs or care about your own feelings. Consider this definition in terms of the current presidency. What hidden trauma would it require to try to coerce the whole world to prove to you that you are important, valued, powerful? How very unimportant, devalued, unloved, and helpless must one be to psychologically transfer all these needs onto the rich and powerful “daddies of the world?” How psychologically traumatized, rageful, and humiliated must one be to transfer these feelings onto anyone who does not meet the unconscious needs? You will not and cannot understand until you know this within yourselves. How often do you expect someone else to be the “good parent” that meets your every need? How do you “love” people who meet your every need? How rageful and rejecting do you become when old feelings of inadequacy, worthlessness, and unlovability arise in you? How do you blame others for those childhood traumas? Come to class prepared to share an example of how this dynamic has been alive in you over the past month.
Pause for a moment and see if you can find a place within you of helplessness, powerlessness, shame, and fear that has led you to use tactics to coerce others into giving you what you want and think you need. If you have done any inner work, you will quickly recognize that your power tactics, manipulations, coercions, and attempts to win people over, impress people, advise people, help people, give to people, make promises to people, etc., all stem from a deep need for them to like you, praise you, love you, or value you. If you can find this in yourself, then you can surely recognize it in politicians whose whole career is a study of tactics to win over others, what they think they need. The political scene is not populated by enlightened saints. They use the same tactics of power and control that we all do. Their promises are hollow and meant only to have you fulfill their own hidden needs. Unless we see it in ourselves, we will never recognize it in them, and so we will get the leaders that reflect our own level of awareness.
Unconscious feelings or fear and shame lead to control tactics to repress these feelings from awareness, which leads to passive, victim behavior in an adult. To constantly repress, deny, attack, and reject our feelings and needs is an act of aggression against ourselves. In other words, our functioning is, in unawareness, various tactics of external power mongering and internal control.
Rage: The underlying feeling behind using power tactics against others is the belief that your need is not being met. Rage leads to overpowering and disempowering others in a desperate and vain attempt to get them to give you what you want or need. The angriest and most rageful people are those who try to get others to love and value them by pleasing them. If you do not meet the need, you will meet the full force of this deep, unconscious, repressed rage. The control tactics of manipulation then turn to overt rage and forceful power against you.
Under the rage is the deep shame and pain, fear, and humiliation of not having some need met when you needed the external world to meet the need as a helpless child who could not yet meet their own needs. When the need was not met, it left you feeling helpless, abandoned, hurt, shamed, and afraid, and then angry and rageful, leading to a life of politics in power and control, instead of a relationship. intimacy and connection.
Power:
Aggressive, shaming action and thought against others to ensure they meet your unconscious internal childhood needs.
Control:
Passive internal defensive thought and action to repress needs and feelings to ensure you meet the needs of the external person demanding that their needs be met by you and their feelings are taken care of by you.
Politics: (AI overview)
Politics is the set of activities and ideas related to governing a country or area, the process of gaining and using power within a group, or the study of political systems. It encompasses the actions of governments and lawmakers, political opinions, and the strategies people use to influence decisions or achieve power, whether at a national level or within a workplace.
Different aspects of politics, which are about external power and control tactics:
Government and governance:
This involves the activities of governments, lawmakers, and those who influence the way a country is run - in other words, what others have to do, which can be moral or immoral depending on the regime in power
Power and influence:
Politics can also refer to the process of getting and keeping power within any group or organization, not just the government. This includes the use of political methods, tactics, and sometimes unprincipled strategies. In other words, what needs to be done to maintain the power to tell others what to do and how to do it.
Study of political systems:
At a university level, politics is the academic field of "political science," which studies political systems and power.
Workplace politics:
This term refers to the activities involved in gaining or retaining power within a specific company or organization.
Political opinions:
In the plural, "politics" can refer to an individual's political opinions, principles, or party affiliations.
Study and Practice
Unless this teaching of knowledge becomes gnosis (deep inner knowing through spiritual practices that bring the unconscious (shadow) to awareness), meaning stopping the use of defenses and allowing awareness to shine, the world will remain the same. Knowledge without personal awareness and application does nothing to change oneself, anyone else, or the world.
So, to aid your practice, I suggest deep meditation, journaling, and discussion with others on the following questions. Come to the first class ready to discuss and engage in the conversation. Remember, the more you wonder and ask questions, the sooner the awareness and change within happen.
What were the politics of power and control in your family of origin?
Who had the most external power, the least external power?
Who had the least external power?
What was the internal effect on each person?
How was power used over you?
How did you learn to use power?
What gives you a feeling of power, in control, superiority, goodness?
How did you learn to comply, and why?
How did you learn to make others comply with your will, and why?
How did you feel superior? Inferior?
What would happen if you challenged the power structures?
What tactics did you learn to repress your own feelings and needs and focus on the needs and feelings of others with more power?
How did you turn against yourself with power so as to control your own feelings and needs?
What was your role in your family of origin?
What were the rules governing the politics of power and control?
Did you feel loved? Or did you have to earn love and feel fear if you did not meet your parents’ needs or obey their demands?
What is the difference between meeting a need and obeying an external expectation?
Draw a picture of the system that represents the politics of power and control.
Lesson Two - To what we say “Yes,” and to what we say “No” - Power and Control or Love?
“Where love rules, there is no will to power; and where power predominates, there love is lacking. The one is the shadow of the other.”
~Carl Gustav Jung, The Collected Works of C. G. Jung: Two Essays on Analytical Psychology
The function of the instinct, which is survival and procreation, in unawareness, results in defenses (the ego). The brain serves the emotional responses of the instinct for self-preservation, which constitute all the thought-out power and control tactics, or defenses. As humans, we can fight against and flee from our emotions in many different inventive ways because of the advanced function of the pre-frontal cortex, which makes us the most advanced animal in the evolutionary process, putting us right at the top of the food chain.
We have the capacity for awareness and choice. Apparently, this is not available to any other species on the planet. And the choice is: either we live in an unaware state about the inner functioning of our psyche, in which case the function will take over the psyche, or we become aware of ourselves as spiritual beings and live from the divinity of who we are in essence and are in charge of the function of the instinctual emotions and ego thoughts that ensure survival. Until we choose to become aware, we are merely beings that are reactive to our environment in a highly defensive and destructive way to ourselves and others.
The work of a lifetime is to be aware, to choose love over fear, to create and contribute from the essence of our being in love and truth. Our destiny is not meant to be one of unawareness and reactivity to the environment, but to integrate our animal/human experience as a function of our true selves. The fully aware human living in alignment with the essence of the Self of love and truth can live in harmony, awareness, and peace, creating beauty and joy on earth. It requires awareness through self-observation. Without this, we will lead lives of blind reactivity using every power and control tactic imaginable to mold everything external to ourselves to our own wills, which will create only rage, violence, wars, and destruction. The choice is always ours. THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS, ONLY AWARENESS - without any thought tagged on to it.
Exercise:
Read this verse from the Tao Te Ching and consider the verse, not as an external teaching but an internal one. What does it mean? What relationship is it suggesting between the ego (function) and the soul? What if you had this inner relationship with your own shadow? How would you then show up in the world with others and in external relationships? Can you think of an actual example in your life?
What happens internally when you judge, try to control, or force inner change? What happens if you condemn your feelings and needs? What if you judge your judgments?
Tao Te Ching Logia 30
Every force is met with an opposing force.
Leaders who follow the Tao
never force their will,
and never seek to defeat their opponents.
Battles do not bring victory,
only misery for all involved.
A follower of the Tao does what needs doing
without undue effort.
Isn’t worried about reward.
Knows when to stop,
and stops completely.
We can do things with great struggle
and they will sometimes seem impressive,
But they will not last.
The struggle holds them together,
when the struggle stops
They disintegrate.
Only natural work endures.
~William Martin
Paradigm Two - Awareness of ego function within Self as the Consciousness of Love
From a deep study of the first paradigm, it is clear that living in a world of the “haves” and the “have-nots,” or of perpetrators and victims, is simply untenable, unsustainable, and ultimately will bring about the demise of the planet. In this paradigm, a horizontal line delineates the hierarchy between those at the top and those at the bottom. How has this line been drawn in the United States? In the world?
We are at an evolutionary crossroads on our planet. We have to evolve to live in a different paradigm of love and truth. But how? Visualize the ball again and see if you can imagine a different world using this simple metaphor. What would the world look like? How would one attain it? What expansion in consciousness, thought, and intention must happen for change to occur? What expansion in feeling and need is required within oneself to become inclusive of everyone and welcome everyone to live on top of the world? Can you get a vision for how the world could look? What line would be drawn to ensure that there is no hierarchy in valuing human life, including your own? Is it possible to bring this about externally in the world? Clearly, history provides no evidence that this is possible. So what is needed?
Personal Perspective
Now, try to bring all your attention to these paradigms internally, and see if you can recognize how they live within you. How do you oppress, repress, suppress, depress, aspects of your own being, never allowing them a voice or the light of day? How do these parts of you feel under the water? What do they do to sabotage your position at the top? Try to come up with actual real-life situations in your own life and come to class ready to discuss the internal dynamics of power and control, perpetration and victimization, that you live in your own inner dynamic. Can you recognize that part of you has to live underwater, while another part lives above it all, without empathy or understanding of the hidden aspects of your life? How do you hate those parts of yourself that you keep underwater? Why? How did this split happen? How are you internally hierarchical in terms of what you value and accept about yourself?
Fill in the metaphorical diagrams with images and see what kind of worlds you can create in each paradigm. Keep them as constant reminders to look inward and see the dynamic played out in your own psyche. Awareness and intention = change
Have
Have not
VERTICAL HIERARCHICAL ORIENTATION OF THE HAVE’S AND HAVE NOTS, OF THE UNAWARE EGO OPERATING IN POWER AND CONTROL
The Two Paradigms - that need to be integrated
1. Paradigm of the unaware ego ruled by shame and fear
2. Paradigm of an awareness of ego within the knowing of self as consciousness (divinity) - the expression of love on earth
Socialogical Perspective
Paradigm One - The Unaware Ego
Imagine the world as a great big rubber ball on the ocean of life. If you have ever played with a ball in the pool, you know that with the slightest movement, it revolves and turns, spinning in the water. It does not stay still. It is hard to push the whole ball under the water. Imagine that this ball represents the world, and people live on the top of the ball, bobbing in the water. However, people also live at the bottom of the world, under the water. There are no other options. People are living lovely lives above water in the sunshine with air to breathe. The people at the bottom of the world struggle to stay alive and have to find creative ways to get a day in the sun to keep going. All kinds of dangerous creatures lurk in the dark depths. It is dangerous and unpleasant. Using this metaphor, think of the current political situation either in America or elsewhere in the world. Pay close attention to where you picked as an example. Why? What memory of an experience is being triggered within yourself?
The people at the top are invested in stopping the ball from spinning around so that they maintain their position at the top of the world. They exert great effort and force to keep the ball from spinning. How do they do this? Pause for a moment and imagine what motivates the people at the top. Feel into their experience. What is the split experience they are having?
How do the people at the bottom feel? What is their split experience? What options do the people at the bottom have? Who bears the greatest responsibility for this situation?
In this paradigm, the people at the top must exert power and control to keep the people at the bottom in their place, thereby maintaining their resources and position at the top. They might strike a bargain for services, money, and power, giving the people at the bottom a day in the sun occasionally in exchange for a small reward.
The people at the bottom could 1. passively accept their fate, 2. start a revolution (literally) and have the ball revolve by using aggressive power, so that they are at the top and the people at the top have to live at the bottom, or 3. they can bargain with the people at the top to get the occasional benefit at the top.
Think of historical examples of all these. Now think of how you have lived the role of being someone at the top and someone at the bottom of the ball in your daily interactions and relationships. What did you do? What is your pattern?
Come to class ready to discuss examples in your own life and experience.
No-one under the water - I have and you have. I will not push you under and I will not allow you to push me under.
HORIZONATAL ORIENTATION OF MUTUALITY, RECIPROCITY AND EQUALITY OF THE AWARE SOUL
Expansion in Belief System from either/or thinking to both/and thinking
I will never push you under the water, AND, I will never let you push me under the water. I will be neither perpetrator nor victim
There are enough resources for everyone on the top - no-one has to live at the bottom
I can work to find a creative way to meet my need AND your need
I can understand myself, and so I can understand you at every level of human development
Expansion of the Heart
I have empathy for you, those in my immediate circles and those on the outer reaches of my personal experience AND, I have empathy for myself. No one is excluded from my circle of concern, empathy and understanding no matter the color, race, creed, ethnicity, or gender orientation.
SOS 1995
~Leonard Cohen
Take a long time with your anger,
sleepyhead.
Don’t waste it in riots.
Don’t tangle it with ideas.
The Devil won’t let me speak,
will only let me hint
that you are a slave,
your misery a deliberate policy
of those in whose thrall you suffer,
and who are sustained
by your misfortune.
The atrocities over there,
the interior paralysis over here —
Pleased with the better deal?
You are clamped down.
You are being bred for pain.
The Devil ties my tongue.
I’m speaking to you,
“friend of my scribbled life.”
You have been conquered by those
who know how to conquer invincibly.
The curtains move so beautifully,
lace curtains of some
sweet old intrigue:
the Devil tempting me
to turn away from alarming you.
So I must say it quickly:
Whoever is in your life,
those who harm you,
those who help you;
those whom you know
and those whom you do not know —
let them off the hook,
help them off the hook.
You are listening to Radio Resistance.
Take a long time with your anger,
sleepyhead.
Don’t waste it in riots.
Don’t tangle it with ideas.
The Devil won’t let me speak,
will only let me hint
that you are a slave,
your misery a deliberate policy
of those in whose thrall you suffer,
and who are sustained
by your misfortune.
The atrocities over there,
the interior paralysis over here —
Pleased with the better deal?
You are clamped down.
You are being bred for pain.
The Devil ties my tongue.
I’m speaking to you,
“friend of my scribbled life.”
You have been conquered by those
who know how to conquer invincibly.
The curtains move so beautifully,
lace curtains of some
sweet old intrigue:
the Devil tempting me
to turn away from alarming you.
So I must say it quickly:
Whoever is in your life,
those who harm you,
those who help you;
those whom you know
and those whom you do not know —
let them off the hook,
help them off the hook.
You are listening to Radio Resistance.
Lesson 3 - Paradigm One in Detail - The Societal Perspective
Recommended Reading
https://www.wicked7.orghttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bSDa5gHthBY
If the center of the wheel is Power and Control, which always arises from unconscious shame and beliefs governing shame, then the outer spokes will be all the - isms of the First paradigm - Fascism, Racism, Imperialism, Colonialism, Sexism, Ageism, Elitism, and on and on, all of which use the tactics outlined above.
The underlying causes are always unaware fear, shame, and early emotional need. Ego defenses are tactics of power and control. The above diagram outlines some of the tactics of Power and Control, but does not address the underlying motives for using them. Nor does this diagram ask the reader to consider how they use these individual tactics together in personal relationships, which are merely reflections of these dynamics within the psyche of every human.
So the exercise this week is for each of us to consider the tactics in this wheel and recognize how we each use them to control ourselves internally. So, for instance, take the one power and control tactic under “Undermine Leadership and Collective Action by Criminalizing Protest,” ask yourself, “How do I criminalize protest within myself?” “How do I protest and how do I stifle the protest?” e.g., One part of you says, “I’m feeling shame when you criticize me, and the other part of you says, ‘It is for your own good, and you would get nothing done if I did not force you to get things done.’
Or let’s take another example, ask yourself, “How do I foster my own economic dependency on other people? I ignore the budget …. I leave the money issues to my partner. I rationalize not working and earning money. I feel entitled to get handouts?” What is really going on internally with me that I keep refusing responsibility for my own independent financial success?”
Ask yourself, “How do I distract myself from my emotions and responsibility with addiction, sports, technology, gambling, drugs, and porn?” - the government cannot do it to you unless you do it to yourself.
Repeat this process with all the different issues of control - let’s take our outrage away from the leaders and see how we ourselves are complying with and living these very dynamics within ourselves, and so have the leaders we deserve. Either we conform to external pressures, or we aggressively defy them, instead of acknowledging our pain and making choices that further our lives and evolution. The issue is always to ask, “Why do I make these passive or aggressive choices externally?” The answer will always be with deep reflection, “Because I do that internally to myself.”
Now draw a Power and Control Wheel and put in the pie pieces the words “Racism, Fascism, Sexism, Ageism, Ableism, Extremism,” as well as other social problems like war, genocide, capital punishment, health control of things like abortion, immunizations and treatments people need, that are also expressions of power and control, and consider how this is alive and well in your own dynamic with yourself and see how it gets projected outwards on to others. You can do the same exercise with any number of other words ending in -isms - narcissism, alcoholism, anarchism, fanaticism, croneyism - on and on. It is easy to see it outside of yourself, but the projection must be pulled back in if anything is to change in the world.
So for instance, if Donald Trump were in therapy with me and I saw on the surface all of his power and control tactics, I would formulate a theory that deep under the water, in his unconscious, are all the feelings of shame, terror, pain and rage of a small child who had such intense emotions and intense needs as the result of horrendous abuse. He controls any knowledge of this with tactics of supreme control, dissociating, denying, and cutting off any recognition of these emotions and needs and using tactics on the surface to force others into meeting his every need, for value, love, attention, support, recognition by using tactics of extreme coercion - flattering those that meet the needs and destroying those that do not. He symbolically wreaks vengeance on his parents in the form of anyone who does not care about his feelings and needs.
(For an excellent psychological analysis of the mind of this kind of narcissism, watch the movie, “The Forgiven,” about the making of a sociopath.
It is a South African movie based on the play The Archbishop and the Antichrist by Michael Ashton, which tells a story involving Archbishop Desmond Tutu’s
search for answers during the Truth and Reconciliation Commission and his meetings with the fictional character Piet Blomfeld.)
There is a scene in the movie where, under severe provocation, Tutu responds from Paradigm One with anger and attack. This scene is very powerful to see
the effect on the perpetrator, but more importantly, on Tutu and how he recovered and rededicated himself to Paradigm Two.
Trump accumulates wealth and power to prove to himself that he has value, but no amount can ever heal the original unconscious wounding of his soul. Am I saying this excuses him, or Putin, or Netenyahu or you, or me? No, I am not. It is when we stop excusing bad behavior that we know someone has understanding and empathy. Love demands limits to such behavior. Fear never demands limit; it complies. Seeing, understanding, and having empathy for my own behavior, with limits, means I can know how to respond to this in others, too. If you say you do not understand someone like Trump, it is a confession that you do not know, see, or understand yourself either. In the movie mentioned above, you can see how Tutu repeatedly maintains himself within the Paradigm of Love, despite the terrorists' hatred and provocation.
In each instance, as you examine the wheel, see how your tactics are merely the outward expression of an unmet childhood need, the meaning you made of your needs not being met, and the pain, shame, and fear you felt. If you find yourself arguing about the degree and intensity of the tactics you use with a protest, “Yes, but these are just little ways, and I would never do awful things like that,” then notice your defense. This is not about the degree, intensity, or frequency of our actions. This is about principle. It is about living in truth and love. It is not about judging at all, but about seeing the dynamic within ourselves and within every human being. We do this only to align our awareness with the energies of Love and Truth (Consciousness). Do not fall into the trap of internal control over research and development! (see diagram above).
Consider how you yourself have found it difficult to change the tactics of power and control that you use over yourself, and realize how monumental it is to expect a whole society to change. Why should the government change? Why would it? If you don’t think you have to change and aren't willing to put in the work to do so, why demand that others do?
Lesson Four - Paradigm One in Detail - Personal Relationships
America today:
AI Overview
In the U.S., millions of people experience domestic violence annually, with approximately 41% of women and 26% of men having experienced physical violence, sexual violence, or stalking by an intimate partner in their lifetime.
Annually, over 10 million people are affected by intimate partner violence. Victims can experience severe injuries or death, and data suggests that about one in five homicide victims are killed by an intimate partner.
Lifetime prevalence
Women: About 41% have experienced contact sexual violence, physical violence, or stalking by an intimate partner in their lifetime.
Men: About 26% of men have experienced contact sexual violence, physical violence, or stalking by an intimate partner in their lifetime.
Stalking: About 1 in 6 women and 1 in 19 men have experienced stalking in their lifetime, most often by someone they know.
Annual occurrence
Overall: Over 10 million people experience intimate partner violence each year.
Women: An estimated 5 million acts of domestic violence are perpetrated against women 18 and older annually.
Men: Approximately 3 million acts of domestic violence are perpetrated against men annually.
It is important to recognize that the statistics reveal the tip of the iceberg - they only reflect reported incidents. The truth is that for the last 40 years of being a therapist in America, I have heard daily the myriad ways in which people use power and control tactics in their personal relationships. This is not only an American problem. It is a universal human dilemma. How we all lead and conduct our relationships is reflected in the rise of leaders who reflect this societal reality. Again, it is not about the degree, intensity, or frequency with which power and control occur; it is about recognizing the reasons why we act as either a perpetrator of power and control tactics or find ourselves helpless victims of other people’s power and control tactics. How are each of us complicit in living in Paradigm One? How committed are we to expansion and growth to live in a different paradigm of equality, mutuality, love, reciprocity, respect, and love?
Exercise:
Study the Power and Control Wheel and consider all the little ways you live in this paradigm. Then analyze incidents by using some everyday examples in your own experience:
What do I experience as a threat, even when there is no realistic threat?
What need do I have that I think someone is not meeting? Why do I believe they should?
What feelings are activated from childhood as a result of this perception?
What were the original experience/experiences that resulted in big feelings?
What did I learn to think and believe about myself?
What tactics did I learn to try to get others to meet my needs and care about my feelings, because I do not yet know how to do this myself?
What tactics am I currently using to try to make other people like, love, and value me because I cannot yet do so myself?
How do I do violence to myself and others? How am I myself a terrorist against the child within me? Do I hate the child within? Am I irritable, impatient, dismissive of my feelings and needs (the child)? How is this different from the horrific gun violence against children? Surely the societal problem is merely a reflection of the adult hatred of the emotions and needs of the inner child. It is the same, in principle, if not in the extremism of the actions of those unfortunate humans that have no awareness of their murderous rage towards their own inner vulnerable and hurt child, projected out onto the world, recreating the same revolving scenario from generation to generation.
Recommended Reading
Broken Toys, Broken Dreams - Terry Kellogg
Study the pages that outline boundary violations, all of which are more subtle tactics of power and control, very often considered “normal,” because this level of dysfunction is the norm.
Lesson Five - Summary of the Two Paradigms Representing Two Stages of Human Development
Paradigm One, in summary, is the function of the unaware ego. Unawareness of the motive of feelings of shame, fear, and rage, and unawareness of the inner need that cannot yet be met internally. This stage results in the deployment of all tactics of power and control, i.e., defenses.
Paradigm Two, in summary, is the Self awakened and aware of the function of the ego, how it formed, and fully in charge of when it is used to the benefit of self AND other. Knowing oneself as Consciousness, i.e., awareness without the addition of thought, feeling, need, or defense, is Love.
What emanates from love is, by definition, loving for oneself and others. When love is blocked by ego, it is not loving to self or other.
See chart 1
See chart 2
Exercise:
Journal each night about the power and control tactics you used during the day that do not reflect the love of who you are. Analyze why and how you were unaware of the thought or tactic you used.
Lesson Six -Why Ordinary People Need to Understand Power
https://www.ted.com/talks/eric_liu_how_to_understand_power
Knowing, understanding, and using power to lead, teach, and guide others is an essential part of public and humanitarian service to the world. Every human is part of systems of hierarchy and rank, in which, by comparison to others, they have authority, knowledge, status, social standing, education, wealth, privilege, etc. of some kind. This is an immutable law of living in a creation of difference, complexity, and diversity. There is nothing inherently wrong with this. However, when rank is misused due to Power and Control issues, it becomes a misuse of rank and power. When someone of a higher rank uses power and control tactics against someone of a lower rank, it is a misuse of the rank and the responsibilities it entails. This is why the higher someone's rank, the greater the responsibility to be aware of unconscious motivations and to remain enlightened, not fall into the myriad ways rank can be abused by power and control tactics. It requires immense awareness and presence to use rank in a mutual, respectful, and interdependent way. However, mutuality and respect do not mean that there is no longer any rank – there is just greater responsibility coming from a clear and loving heart and mind.
The greatest abuse of Rank is by those in positions of spiritual power. To have spiritual rank and then use power and control tactics rooted in personal unawareness constitutes spiritual abuse – and there can be no worse abuse. So, the higher the rank, the worse the abuse. The greater the discrepancy in rank, the greater the harm when power and control are used. So clearly, people who have been accorded great rank bear great responsibility to be aware, to act with respect, not to threaten or disempower others.
We do not want to use power in unawareness but in full awareness. Power is not a dirty word when it comes from a place of valuing life, valuing humans, valuing equality, reciprocity, and mutuality - paradigm two. Empowerment can only happen when there is a deep understanding of the misuse of power within ourselves and against others. Does our power come from the deep, unaware pits of dark, unaware shame and fear that serve only self, or does our power come from a place of clarity, understanding, care, and connection, the good of all?
How can we recognize the difference between an empowered choice and the use of power over people to force them do what we want and think is right, based on unconscious feelings and needs? Again, we start with ourselves. We start to investigate our own hidden motives, or we will never recognize the motives of others and will be led into treachery of one kind or another.
Empowerment
An empowered person is someone who acts from a place of freedom from unconscious ego, with awareness, from the core of their true, loving, and wise nature, with clarity and certainty that has no arrogance or false humility. Although the behaviors might be the same as those exhibited by people acting defensively, the behavior is not defensive but is in the best interests of all involved. Aggression becomes assertion, control becomes firm limit setting, and pretense becomes authenticity. There is no relinquishing of rank but the fullness of embracing rank and authority, identity, presence, leadership, and taking one’s rightful place in community with humility, service, and the power of love, which has all the power of creation rather than destruction. This is the power that remains once the power of fear has been relinquished.
“Anger is just anger. It isn't good. It isn't bad. It just is. What you do with it is what matters. It's like anything else. You can use it to build or to destroy. You just have to make the choice."
Constructive anger," the demon said, her voice dripping sarcasm.
Also known as passion," I said quietly. "Passion has overthrown tyrants and freed prisoners and slaves. Passion has brought justice where there was savagery. Passion has created freedom where there was nothing but fear. Passion has helped souls rise from the ashes of their horrible lives and build something better, stronger, more beautiful.”
~Jim Butcher, White Night
See the diagram of Power here
Lesson Seven - Learning to Control Anger and be Internally Empowered - Part 1
“Anger ... it's a paralyzing emotion ... you can't get anything done. People sort of think it's an interesting, passionate, and igniting feeling — I don't think it's any of that — it's helpless ... it's absence of control — and I need all of my skills, all of the control, all of my powers ... and anger doesn't provide any of that — I have no use for it whatsoever."
[Interview with CBS radio host Don Swaim, September 15, 1987.]”
~Toni Morrison
Anger is the hallmark of Paradigm One; however, very few people can identify this feeling. It has been suppressed and repressed, dumbed down and muted out of awareness through numerous defensive tactics. Instead of being able to identify and name our anger, it is acted out sideways in endless acts of mini aggressions, all socially sanctioned as normal. Judgment direct or indirect, as in trying to change other people by giving them advice not asked for, helping them, rewarding them for doing what you think is “right,” punishing them for doing what you think is “wrong,” superiority, blame, criticism, self-righteousness, pouting and sulking when others do not meet your needs, withdrawing affection, the silent treatment, gossip, forming alliances against someone in judgment, sarcasm, snide remarks… and on and on. This is anger. It is justified—self-righteous anger. And yet, all that it is is the myriad ways in which you have been treated, have internalized the dynamic, and the way you now treat yourself if you ever move outside of what is “good, right, and perfect,” according to the mores of your upbringing. At an unconscious level, you are now the moral watchdog for yourself and everyone else, and you feel you have the right to overpower, change, and aggress against others in the same way you do to yourself. This is an explanation of the psychological term ‘projection’.
This does not even begin to address the thousands of hateful ways in which people are aggressive in rage against others in overt and violent ways. However, as I said earlier, it is not a matter of degree, frequency, or intensity; it is a matter of principle. And the only solution to the issue is an empathetic and understanding awareness of the difficulty of not acting like a knowledgeable animal and becoming human instead.
“Anger is like flowing water; there's nothing wrong with it as long as you let it flow. Hate is like stagnant water; anger that you denied yourself the freedom to feel, the freedom to flow; water that you gathered in one place and left to forget. Stagnant water becomes dirty, stinky, disease-ridden, poisonous, deadly; that is your hate. On flowing water travels little paper boats; paper boats of forgiveness. Allow yourself to feel anger, allow your waters to flow, along with all the paper boats of forgiveness. Be human.”
~C. JoyBell C.
So, assuming you wish this for yourself - to stop being reactive, unaware, and living in intelligent instinct and ego defense, and desire to become human, let’s explore how to do that:
Recognizing and Identifying Anger and Rage
Start noticing all the times you use “rage words” of one degree or another: mad, annoyed, pissed off, irritated, indignant, resentful, bitter, hostile… what is your favorite word?
Recognizing Projection
Now ask yourself, “Why?” Usually, you will immediately answer, “Because that person did …. did not do…” Notice this. See how you are projecting (blaming) and are primed to use power-and-control tactics on that person.
Notice Resistance and Rationalization
When challenged by the idea of projection, you might find yourself objecting, “Yes, but does that mean that what the other person did is okay?” No, of course not. It means that what your business is is your own inner response to this. Will you be an unaware, reactive victim or a perpetrator in response to the other person, or will you use the opportunity to know yourself and find a way to meet your own need for safety, love, value, and belonging? This might mean setting a limit with someone, but it would not be out of anger. It would be from a deep knowing of what is in your best interests and theirs as well. It is never loving to not insist on limits on what is not loving towards you internally and externally. The idea that something must change outside of you to be at peace, happy, or fulfilled is a false belief and a dead end. This belief must be corrected, and a limit must be set on old patterns of belief. This idea must be replaced with the idea that you are not dependent on other people. You are fully responsible for your own feelings, needs, beliefs, and behaviors, and this is the only thing that is within your control.
“I want to say somewhere: I've tried to be forgiving. And yet. There were times in my life, whole years, when anger got the better of me. Ugliness turned me inside out. There was a certain satisfaction in bitterness. I courted it. It was standing outside, and I invited it in.”
~Nicole Krauss, The History of LoveAfter Resistance, a Deep Investigation
Once you have settled down by correcting your inner belief system about others changing, then it is time to go internal and do the inner work. We must know how to do it. What are the questions to ask oneself to go deeper and deeper? Remember, the deeper the roots of awareness, the greater the tree’s growth. To grow, we must tap deep underground resources. Water and nutrients are underground, not above ground. We must be connected to the Great Spiritual Mother of us all and her inner guidance in what is loving and true and leads to growth - the very water of life, and drink from her deeply.
The Right Container
As an expression and creation of the Great Mother, you, too, are essentially consciousness. Consciousness, which is the infinite energies of Love and Truth, is the container for everything that is created - all the thoughts, feelings, perceptions, needs, and behaviors you have generated are held within the container of your own consciousness. What images come to mind as you meditate on this concept? What is your experience of this state of being in your body? As an expression and creation of the Great Mother, your very DNA is formed through consciousness. Consciousness, which is the infinite energies of Love and Truth, is the container for all that is created - all the thoughts, feelings, perceptions, needs, and behaviors that you choose are held within the container of your own consciousness. What is the experience of this state of being in your body? Once you can see that the small cluster of perception, leading to feeling, thought, need, and behavior, is infinitesimal in relationship to the container in which it is held, you will find the courage for the next step.
Relationship
What would the relationship between Infinite Consciousness within be with the external manifestations of thought, feeling, need, and behavior look like? This is an important question. Our first gods were our parents, and they were the embodiment for us, as small children, of what is good and loving, and yet, how they related to us was very often everything but loving or authentic to their own state of being. Most of us reach adulthood confused about what love is. We, in fact, have no idea how to relate to our own inner experiences other than through what was given to us in relationship and what we received from our parents. We call punishment and reward love. We call helping and controlling love. We call it interfering and advise giving love. We call gossiping about others and eliciting alliances against others loving. We harass, judge, and criticize, “for our own good and the good of others.” We do not even know how to be empathetic to ourselves, let alone loving, because we have never been taught to honor and respect our own feelings, needs, and thoughts. The very first step in learning to have an empathic relationship with ourselves is:
To listen, observe, notice, enquire, and show interest in what is happening within ourselves.
To the extent that we were listened to, noticed, and our thoughts, feelings, and needs were received with interest in us as children, is the extent to which we will have introjected that dynamic and learned to do it for ourselves.
To notice the immediate thought reaction to what you hear, see, and observe. Notice if it is judgment, criticism, or some form of disgusted response to
what you see, hear, and observe.
All these responses are rage, anger, dismissal, and the use of force against a child. This is the internalized parental response you received as a child. This is not love. This is not YOU. This is to meet inner rage with rage, and we cannot solve the problem from the same level at which it was created. You cannot make war to end war. You cannot meet rage with rage and think it will lead to inner or outer peace. To observe our inner rage with equanimity is the first step in learning to love ourselves and the hardest step of all.
Change the inner belief that long-term change happens through fear tactics of rage, punishment, shaming, rejection, criticism, or judgment. It does not. Only awareness can bring long-term change. Remind yourself of this repeatedly until the urge to be hatefully reactive toward yourself changes to curiosity about WHY you behave the way you do, and you are willing to dive deeply into the historical reasons for your patterned reactivity.
Lesson 8 - Learning to Control Anger and be Internally Empowered - Part 2
“Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don't.” ~Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free
“Most misunderstandings in the world could be avoided if people would simply take the time to ask, ‘What else could this mean?”
~Shannon L. Alder
A Deep Investigation - Key points to internalize
The hidden roots of rage, anger, irritation, annoyance, being pissed off, are SHAME - ALWAYS SHAME.
It is impossible to go any further in our investigation until we ask ourselves the simple question: “How am I making this external event mean something about my identity? How am I agreeing with the message of the external event that I am somehow wrong, bad, unlovable, imperfect, and worthy only of revenge, abuse, judgment, criticism, and punishment? Without this deep, hidden belief and feeling, there would be no angry reactivity, only curiosity and a desire to understand what is occurring to protect oneself and understand the other person. Essentially, your rage is protecting you from knowing about the hidden shame. You abandon that feeling and belief by rising above it in anger, then projectile-vomiting it onto others. To be aware of this dynamic is the start of self-empowerment.
The deeper and more unaware the shame, the more intense the shame, the quicker and more intense the anger response will be. It will seem as if the anger is instantaneous. Think of your anger as measured on a thermometer. Right now, draw a thermometer and calibrate it from 1 - 10 using your own words and colors to indicate the progression of the feelings. It is important to be aware of the subtler feelings before 4 on the thermometer.
Once your feelings reach a 4 on your anger thermometer, it is unlikely you will not act out aggressively, somewhere on the spectrum from sarcasm to physical violence. The power of shame and rage has the potency of a two-year-old temper tantrum, because it all started before age 6.
Anger becomes a habituated pattern of response. Think about how this occurred in your life and why? How did you learn it? How do you get your way using your anger to intimidate others? There is always a cause and effect. There is always a hidden need and a want. There is always a big feeling of fear or shame. There is always immediate gratification, release, and reward. What are they?
How were anger and power, and control tactics, a part of the society you grew up in, normalized in family life, and condoned in schooling?
What are the beliefs and values you learned around the use of force, shows of aggression, and external power? How do you feel when you see the “bad guy” getting so-called” justice”? How do you think “bad people” deserve punishment? How are these beliefs gender normed? What did you learn about being a “real man” and a desirable woman?
What emotional needs do you still insist others meet for you? Can you see the connection between others not meeting your inner needs and the rage, power, and control you then use within and without?
Decide right now, “Anything is better than expressing aggression and violence. If you find resistance to this statement, write the argument down and see if you can speak directly to it and form a relationship with the part of you that still wants to hold on to power and control over others.
Decide right now, “Anything is better than allowing others to express aggression and violence against me, except using aggression and violence myself.
Watch the movie “Dead Man Walking.” Get together as a group to discuss the feelings and programmed beliefs that are portrayed in this movie. How are the two paradigms represented within the different players in the movie? How do you feel about the death penalty being reintroduced for pedophiles in Florida? What do you think should be the state’s policy against offenders of violence? Can violence on violence ever result in peace?
What are your triggers? Be aware of the patterns.
External actions of others, external situations
Unmet needs (by others and self)
Self-talk and meaning-making
Unexamined assumptions and beliefs, judgments, and misattribution of blame - personal and societal
Internal feelings resulting from the above
FOR WARMTH
by Thich Nhat Hanh
I hold my face between my hands.
No, I am not crying.
I hold my face between my hands
to keep my loneliness warm —
two hands protecting,
two hands nourishing,
two hands to prevent
my soul from leaving me
in anger
Lesson 9 - Let’s Practice More
"Mastering others is strength, mastering yourself is true power." — Lao Tzu
When have you felt rage, anger, irritation, or annoyance? Judgment (as opposed to discernment) is anger masked by thought.
Remember a time in childhood when you “lost it.” What happened?
Remember a time in adulthood when you “lost it.” What happened? – What judgments did you have of yourself and the other?
Write out the first story, then tell it to someone using the sequence below. Remember that anger is a defense against a threat of some kind – a threat when the external world is not meeting our universal human needs, either realistically or in perception.
What was the need you perceived was not being met? What was the threat to your integrity and True Identity (Soul Self)?
What did you immediately feel, before you distanced yourself from the feeling by using your thinking to produce anger? This happens in a split second. Slow the sequence down to find the feeling in your body.
What thinking or pre-cognition (perception) created the anger?
How did you act out? Where did you direct your anger? Self-blame or other blame?
How did you act in, which is still really acting out the anger? (Either way, you are distancing yourself from the primary feeling)
How did you generalize your anger?
If you generalized your anger, which group of people do you hate the most?
Finish the sentence, I hate people (who are just like me) when they ….Examine carefully how this is how you hate yourself, and blame yourself, but do not wish to see this projection of your self-hatred/shame onto others?
How do we deal with anger?
Feel it and do not act on it. Do not direct it anywhere – either towards yourself or someone else. Have the courage to just sit with anger, accept it, hold it, and sink deeply into it until you can find the underlying emotion or feeling?
This is the SPIRITUAL DANGER:
to repress anger with cultural beliefs you have heard, like “anger only hurts you,” or “anger is wrong, and enlightened people do not get angry.”
to act out your anger through self-justification, blaming, rationalizing, denying real feelings, offering explanations, and making excuses – see the complete list below under the childish ideas of “protection.”
What triggered it? How does it relate to the story above?
What need was not met for you as a child?
How did it make you feel, really?
What happened when you got mad as a child? Was there a cost or a benefit?
How has this informed the rest of your life in relating to yourself and others?
Can you bring some empathy, kindness, or compassion to this past experience and feeling?
Practice not externalizing anger. In other words, stay completely present to your anger until you have come to the full awareness of the sequence and can find compassion.
This IS the new SPIRITUAL PRACTICE:
Stay in and with your anger until it is transformed to compassion for you and others through deep examination and exploration using the above guidelines.
Compassion may be externalized on others and self, NOT anger.
Setting limits is a part of compassion.
Let’s look at some of the ways we thought we could protect ourselves using anger as children – these all represent 5/6-year-old behaviors that we become fixated on if we were not parented lovingly in a way that brings awareness and emotional growth. All these behaviors emanate from the lack of awareness of the child’s developing ego in attempting to get its needs met
“I’m the king of the castle, and you’re the dirty rascal.”
If you do not give me what I need, I will put you down and elevate myself.
I will blame you and exonerate myself.
I will be self-righteous, haughty, or arrogant, and I will blame you to make you bad and me good.
I will have no empathy for you and live in self-pity.
I will grab what I want at your expense.
I will fantasize about getting everything I want to prove I am king and have power.
I will grab power over others in any way I can, intellectually, emotionally, physically, and spiritually.
I will generalize my experience with one to whole groups of people who might pose the same threat, in my mind.
I will demand you meet my needs for attention, compliance, value, and love by terrorizing you, blackmailing you, taking from you, exploiting you, and the environment.
I will bargain with you with the implicit understanding that if I do something for you, you will meet my needs.
I will watch carefully what your need is and meet it seemingly innocently with the implicit and not understood understanding that you will watch for what I need carefully, and then if you do not meet it, I will be justified in being angry
I will rationalize, intellectualize, and excuse my persecution of you and be smug about it.
Demand to be treated as special, superior, and important. Act entitled.
Demand attention, admiration, and compliance to your wishes – learn to get this by fulfilling roles and achieving highly, or throwing tantrums, whining, etc.
Being envious, jealous, and plotting to get what others have.
Idealizing/devaluing yourself and/or others in all kinds of combinations
Lying, exaggerating, creating stories to boost yourself, or avoiding shame.
Be obsessed with comparisons about beauty, money, fame, success, achievement, and all external societal measures of success.
Judge and compare self and others – conversation is full of “I can’t believe,” or “Can you believe….”
Being good, right, and perfect to boost self-righteousness and put others down...
“Having an ‘I don’t care attitude. Isolating and withdrawing from ‘shitty, other people.”
This list is just a brief sampling – watch yourself this week and notice what else you could add to the list. Notice all victim-perpetrator behavior – it's all filled with anger.
SPIRITUAL EXERCISE:
Be deliberate, intentional, and mindful in noticing these behaviors in yourself and others and finding a way to set limits with compassion. This does not mean finding the right technique, words, or skill. It will require you to do some deep introspection. Examine this excerpt from David Kanigan’s blog – what is he needing? What is the “dandy” needing? Can you find compassion for both? What do you imagine their childhood story might be? This is a great blog, by the way!
“I’m sitting at the gate. 6 am.
Slumped in the seat, I unstrap the day-to-moment: alarm, bleary-eyed 4 am shower, the pack-up, the last once-over of the room, the tip for the cleaning lady, the hotel checkout including erasure of the $18.95 wifi overcharge, tip for the bellman, cab, boarding pass, security and of course, the slow march down the corridor with the bag. The bloody bag, wheels now up, exhausted from the trek, is resting peacefully.
Sigh. It’s ok.
I twist in the ear buds, find Today’s Chill playlist, and turn inward, deep into the Head.
30 minutes till boarding.
There’s a stir in the waiting area. Ladies chattering.
Hair gelled and swept back. Fitted black sport coat. White starched shirt. Skinny black tie. Slim fit, boot cut, stone-washed jeans. European-style boots, fine polish. Accessorized with a smart brown leather case, Louis Vuitton-like with a fancy French handle like Porte-Documents Jour. As he passes by check-in, there’s a whiff of Tom Ford Oud Wood Eau de Parfum, which fills the waiting area with its rosewood, cardamom, and tonka bean alchemy. Ladies swoon, now fully under the spell.
He takes the empty seat next to me and sets the Porte-Documents Jour neatly on his lap.
I slide my bag under the seat, out of sight. Jesus. Mr. Dandy had to sit here?
I close my eyes. Shift in my seat. Can’t find a sweet spot, this seat cushion where 53 million travelers sat before me. Ass to manufactured steel. I shift uncomfortably.
Mr. Dandy sits with his hands cupped one over the other on top of his Porte-Document Jour. No ear buds. No books. Just sitting peacefully, absorbing the adoring lights on him, and oblivious to CNN blasting from the monitor overhead about Trump’s tweets, flooding in California, and a Man who was told he was fat actually having a 130-pound tumor.
Sigh. It’s not ok. Really.
Down 15 lbs., there have been casualties. Jacket is oversized, cuffs below wrist, sleeves invisible. Shoes, scuffed, dusty, and oversized, callouses forming on baby toes, left and right. Belt synched up on pants to hold them up, waist band bunching up front – sweatpants really, not fitting as relaxed-fit Chinos were designed – and all nicely rumpled from a bad fold job. The shirt would fit a thick-necked wrestler, but on me, it pooched in the front, and the tail was untucked in the back. Underwear, black gotchees, hanging loosely. Socks, over-the-calf, somehow too tight, pinching legs. Unshaven, with a 2-day bristle, but nothing cool about the sharp, grey-black, splotchy stubble rounding out the ensemble. Oh, let’s not forget the Old Spice (Old Man) deodorant and a splash of something akin to pungent, sticky, insect repellent.
The attendant makes the boarding call. Dandy stands and walks to the gate, all eyes locked on.
I sit up, tuck in my shirt tail, thinking that will clean this up, and drag my carry-on, which has awakened with its wailing. Wow, what a f*ing mess.
Melvv cues up on my Favorites with “Not Me“:
I keep falling down when I stand on my feet. I feel like a clown when I say what I mean
Screw it. Let it all go. A middle-aged man is going sagging. Really, like who cares?
Take off the belt, let the pants sag, let the black gotchees and cracks hang out. Going Street.
Like who cares, right?” ~ David Kanigan
“Anger ... it's a paralyzing emotion ... you can't get anything done. People sort of think it's an interesting, passionate, and igniting feeling — I don't think it's any of that — it's helpless ... it's absence of control — and I need all of my skills, all of the control, all of my powers ... and anger doesn't provide any of that — I have no use for it whatsoever."
~Toni Morrison
